lesson learned
DO NOT play hard to get with a potential employer, especially when you are desperate for the less than great position they are offering you.
i feel like a fucking idiot. i thought thats what i was supposed to do! people and websites and whatnot all said, ‘if they offer it, dont say yes right away, even if you definitely want it’. i didnt understand that, but i figured thats how the game was played and i went with it, and now look where the fuck i am. waiting for her to call me back, because now she has to check and make sure again. maybe this is all just a big game, but remind me to NEVER DO THAT AGAIN. even though i didnt understand it, i figured as an employer, she would be used to it or something and consider it just a normal part of the process? i dont know, but then i call her back and she seems all uncertain and questioning why i had to think about it. so then there i am trying to sort of backpedal but not entirely admit that i was just faking.
i think ill still get the job, i mean it seems pretty unlikely to me that they would offer it and then take it back. though, i suppose they have all the power in this situation, they could do whatever they wanted. but now i just feel really awkward and embarrassed and like we’re starting off on the wrong foot by having this weird miscommunication as our first encounter.
this is not how this was supposed to go. i think in times like these, and when they know youre desperate, its better not to try and pretend like you have some other offer or soemthing, whatever that ‘thinking about it’ was supposed to mean.
if i had gone with my gut and been myself - the desperate nerd - i would have said ‘absolutely! thank you!’ yesterday and this entire thing would be over.
that is officially the last time i listen to anyone else.
2 years ago • Notes